the sarcastic emoji

his name is…
wait not yet.

thats what i keep telling myself.

i want i want i want
but i cant i cant i cant..

cause boy, i wanna do this right.

Have you ever been with someone who makes you fear destruction due to their perfectly imperfect nature?

someone who is so comfortable with you- you just want to protect them even when you know you cant.

I cant change people. I refuse to change you.
Give it a year, see how the circumstances bless or take.

I am not talking about love.

Have you ever been with someone with a familiar past, yet a distant one as well?

Have you ever spent almost everyday with someone and never moved fast?
You walk slow, you talk slow, you think slow.
you look at each other, slowly.
Doesn’t even have to be romantically.

I am not talking about love.

I don’t want you to read this and fear that I am in love with you because I am not.

I am not talking about love.
I am in love with our process, with the growth I see in me … through you.
I am in love with your communication
I am in love with your honorable vulnerability.
I am in love with your struggle
I am in love with your path
and our patience.
I got time and so do you.

That patience, that planting, this foundation… Im falling for it.

Im used to you.
I cant say I love you, because right now I dont want to-

I am not talking about love.
Ive said I love you too many times this past year, you dont deserve to be a this year love.

I want my shit to be right for you.

It could be this song making me feel weird…

I don’t want to love you, so I dont.
It is too soon to love again.
But I like you.

I like you. ALOT
Thank you for spending a lot of time with me.

You were confused right?
Stop making me feel the same.
I am not talking about love.

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